Thank god this time has come.

So tonight is my last night as a “single parent”. Jeff is done school tomorrow with the exception of two finals. I think this time has taught me a lot. Number one is that is sucked big time, but wasn’t too bad at the same time. Things seemed to run smoothly when it was only me. I wasn’t expecting that. My kids can sleep like crap and I hated that. I didn’t anticipate being so dog assed tired. Five kids need a lot, they all want to be heard, usually at the same time. They want to be your one and only even for just that moment. It leaves you feeling very stretched and pulled in different directions. I could never be a full time single parent. I just couldn’t do it. Without Jeff’s help and support while he was gone and his absolute wonderfulness while he was home I would’ve lost my mind.

Today for example, Ainsley follows me around the playground for about five minutes. Mom….Mommy…MOMMMY. Whining, yelling repeating constantly. All the while I’m saying, “just a minute sweetheart.”, “I need to help Dylan right now.” “Kye’s hurt himself hold on.” “Kyrra has to go potty I’ll be right there”. Finally I can focus on her and say ok what do you need. Her answer…..Noffin. I thought it was adorable but at the same time the men with the nice padded room would have to take me away if I had no relief from that kind of thing.

I learnt that I am a good mom. I know I have faults. I yell, I hate yelling but it just seems to come flying out. I can worry too much, but honestly what parent doesn’t. I enjoy the mundane moments with my kids. A snuggle, playing in the sand, laughing. If I could just be like Jeff and go with the flow more things would be gravy. I think that’s part of why I need him. He helps me flow. Gets the stick out…I won’t say from where, I’m sure there are opinions on that. LOL.

The biggest lesson I learnt is that I need my husband around. I want him to be around. I still love him as much as I did the day I knew he was mine. He is my other half. There is no me without him. We are a unit. I love my unit, the seven of us are a wonderful little team. I hope we can stay that way for a long time.

Friday, I just want to spend the day playing with my kids and my husband. Celebrating the fact that he won’t have to leave us again, until next year…hopefully. And then not for so much.

I can’t wait until 3:30 (if you’re speeding, which you had better not) – 4 o’clock DD!